I wrote this Saturday morning as we were touching down in OKC. After two days, it’s still all I can piece together without losing sight of my computer because of the tears.
We left Ethiopia Friday morning about 11:oo a.m. I cried all the way to the airport. Sobbed as we got out of the taxi and hugged Yemamu, Sisay, the rest of our team and Kaleab. Our flight to Dubai was almost four hours and I wept like a baby most of the way. During our six hour layover, I tried to talk to The Hero, but each time I opened my mouth, all that came out were tears. Our overnight flight to Atlanta was not much better.
And as I sit typing this, we are about an hour outside Oklahoma City, and I’m tearing up. Please understand, after 10 days, I am ready to see my children. But a huge piece of me is still in Ethiopia.
Re-entry is always hard. It usually takes me weeks to back to a routine. This time is different. I don’t want to go back to how it was before. I don’t want to walk into a grocery store and forget those that struggle to find food on a daily basis. I don’t want to eat another meal at a restaurant and forget those 12 boys who eat, sleep and scrounge for their every necessity at a trash dump.
There is so much of our trip that I will eventually be able to share; to attempt to attach words to what occurred those beautiful 10 days. It’s just not today. There will be much that I cannot share for awhile; and parts of it I never will. Today the hurt is fresh, raw and while I always want it to be there, I don’t know yet how to verbalize or write it and I know you couldn’t understand my mumbling through all the crying.